anti-timetravel: endless 8

It would be cool to accelerate time by 8 hours, so you could be where you want to be already. But you need these 8 hours. You need 8 hours of nervous boredom in order to become the person you need to be in 8 hours. You need 8 hours of doubting yourself and contemplating the repercussions of “failing.” You need 8 hours of feeling inferior for doubting yourself and for contemplating any possibility of failure. You need 8 hours to feel all of that and then have it all wiped away in a single moment at the end of the 8 hours. Every moment you spend in a state of minor agony is a moment you are going to look back on and enjoy. It will form the basis of your happiest memories. There will be no happy memory without the discomfort that came before it. Actually, I just checked, and I found out that you will never get that time back, and so you need to enjoy every moment. You need to cope spiritually by trying to short-circuit experience straight into wisdom by internalizing that no moment is more important than the other, and if you have trouble really grasping that, then ask yourself why you are putting Master Chief levels of weighted nervous boredom into one particular event occurring in 8 hours. You are so convinced that everything good and enjoyable will be delivered to you in a mere 8 hours, but it might actually all just be exactly the same. Hah, just kidding—no moment is ever the same (tell yourself this). In 8 hours you will suddenly be there and forgetting about any nervous boredom you felt 8 hours prior, and then when it’s finally over, you will be waiting for something new—a different set of 8 hours—and you will just continue on this way over and over for a short period of time, so that’s why you need to slow down and feel every moment as it passes instead of trying to escape it.